Friday, September 08, 2006
I wake up today with another headache;
there's only so much more I can take.
I wipe the sleep from my eyes
and it hurts when I realize
I'm waking up alone.
My first thoughts are always of you,
wondering if you think of me too.
I step out of bed to start the day.
If I see you, what would I say?
Probably just "Hello".
I can't find the nerve to tell you how I feel
cause that wound would be too hard to heal.
I pour myself some cereal and peer outside;
my emotions are getting harder to hide.
Even those around can tell.
My heart pounds when I think of what you'll say;
I just hope you don't turn around and walk away.
I call you on the phone just to say "Hello"
And I cant think of what else to say to you.
Silence and deep breaths are all that we hear,
rejection and heartache, now we both fear.
I break the silence and say, "goodbye".
You respond with a sigh and you say, "bye too".
That's not what I expected.
You hang up.
I sit with the phone in my hand,
waiting for my shattered heart to land.
I lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling
and fall asleep before I can figure out why.
Why I just don't have the words and guards to say,
"I love you"
Here and Out in misery.
Dc*
